my monthly blog post...

Well, it's that time again! time to post my monthly update. it's a little sooner than usual, but that's ok.
I'm done with my internship. i have only one more class to take in the summer. i graduate in 3 months (august 7). this is getting really close. i can taste it. i want to be out of here soooo bad, but i have to pass this class. then, it's out into the real world. no longer a student. a graduate. with a degree. probably that i'll never use. i loved my major, and i don't think i would have done anything else, but i couldn't do it for a living. i would get way too burned out way too quickly.
i found myself "using" God. i would spend time with him when i wanted to write a song. it was dumb. i didn't seek him with all my heart, and guess what...i didn't find him. i realized what i was doing and immediately thought of how dumb it was. i need to be seeking who i am writing the songs about, not the song itself. i got way to caught up in that. he has shown me that when i lead worship, it is best to let him pick the songs, rather than me. it is him we are singing to, and he probably has certain songs that he would like to hear at certain times. so i moved myself completely out of the way. from picking the songs, to playing the music, to singing. i have nothing to do with it. it's all him. (thank the Lord for that.)