wow. the last time i blogged, we had just decided on a band name. seems like forever ago. hopefully, there are still a faithful few who continue to look at my blog. i probably ran everyone off, but it doesn't hurt to try does it? i dont' really know what to write. Karen and i are about to hit the one year mark...holy cow. we are trying to figure out what we are going to do with aur lives. so the title of my blog still holds true. stuck here in the middle of the directions God is leading us. we have closed a chapter of our lives (auburn) and are waiting to open the next (who knows what). we really have little idea what God has in store for us. we know that seminary for Karen is a possibility and we are working towards that. we also know that music is an avenue for me. so...still clueless. one thing i do know is that this is a time of preparation for whatever the future holds.
how's everyone doing out there in bloggerland?
2.06.2007
9.01.2006
band name
we are no longer the band without a name. we have finally decided on something, and it's getting the approval of many. the first few we decided on had opposition from many people, but this one has had nothing but positive feedback. it has no meaning as of now, but i think it could. the name for the band yet to be named is:
AFTERFALL
www.myspace.com/afterfallband
enjoy
AFTERFALL
www.myspace.com/afterfallband
enjoy
8.15.2006
just because
i always get flack for not updating, so i did. check karen's blog (karenecorwin.blogspot.com) for pics of our awesome dog bailey. he's the best
7.17.2006
for meagan maki, and everyone else who is so faithful to check this rarely updated blog
your comment made me laugh, so i thought i would post to appease the masses. not a whole lot to report. we're moving in next to david and farah, who called us crazy. i don't think we're crazy. "the band" that is nameless is moving ahead. we're knocking out some of my songs, and getting them really good. i'm really excited about that. i'm about 2 weeks away from graduating from college, which is so awesome that words don't come close to describing the greatness of it. and i'm really falling in love with jesus all over again. i've really been living a boring lifeless existence lately, and he woke me up to this fact here recently. i'm missing out on the abundant life that he has and the relationship that he offers. i laid awake in bed last night chewing on the mediocraty that i have been settling for. i can't wait to see where he takes me.
5.04.2006
my monthly blog post...
Well, it's that time again! time to post my monthly update. it's a little sooner than usual, but that's ok.
I'm done with my internship. i have only one more class to take in the summer. i graduate in 3 months (august 7). this is getting really close. i can taste it. i want to be out of here soooo bad, but i have to pass this class. then, it's out into the real world. no longer a student. a graduate. with a degree. probably that i'll never use. i loved my major, and i don't think i would have done anything else, but i couldn't do it for a living. i would get way too burned out way too quickly.
i found myself "using" God. i would spend time with him when i wanted to write a song. it was dumb. i didn't seek him with all my heart, and guess what...i didn't find him. i realized what i was doing and immediately thought of how dumb it was. i need to be seeking who i am writing the songs about, not the song itself. i got way to caught up in that. he has shown me that when i lead worship, it is best to let him pick the songs, rather than me. it is him we are singing to, and he probably has certain songs that he would like to hear at certain times. so i moved myself completely out of the way. from picking the songs, to playing the music, to singing. i have nothing to do with it. it's all him. (thank the Lord for that.)
I'm done with my internship. i have only one more class to take in the summer. i graduate in 3 months (august 7). this is getting really close. i can taste it. i want to be out of here soooo bad, but i have to pass this class. then, it's out into the real world. no longer a student. a graduate. with a degree. probably that i'll never use. i loved my major, and i don't think i would have done anything else, but i couldn't do it for a living. i would get way too burned out way too quickly.
i found myself "using" God. i would spend time with him when i wanted to write a song. it was dumb. i didn't seek him with all my heart, and guess what...i didn't find him. i realized what i was doing and immediately thought of how dumb it was. i need to be seeking who i am writing the songs about, not the song itself. i got way to caught up in that. he has shown me that when i lead worship, it is best to let him pick the songs, rather than me. it is him we are singing to, and he probably has certain songs that he would like to hear at certain times. so i moved myself completely out of the way. from picking the songs, to playing the music, to singing. i have nothing to do with it. it's all him. (thank the Lord for that.)
4.22.2006
I gotta get better at this...
Wow. it's been over a mpnth and a half since i've posted anything. if you are still checking to see if i'm posting, thank you, but i've probably run every one off. well, a lot has happened in the past month and a half. i'll make a list:
1.) I got married on March 11
2.) Karen and I decided not to go on staff in auburn in august
3.) i made a demo (you can hear 2 of the songs at my Myspace:: www.myspace.com/bryanisbell)
4.) I'm in a band
5.) i've decided to move (Possibly) to North Carolina
6.) I'm "touring" this summer, depending on if anyone wants me to come
7.) I started working back at hibbett
8.) I'm alsmost done with my internship
9.) i started teaching guitar lessons
and i can't think of the numerous other things that are swirling in my head.
It's been a busy time. because of that, my time with the Father has been limited. But something he has taught me and that i am clinging to is that he has me firmly in his hand, and all i can do is follow his leading. so we shall see where the road has for me and MY WIFE (that's still kinda weird!).
1.) I got married on March 11
2.) Karen and I decided not to go on staff in auburn in august
3.) i made a demo (you can hear 2 of the songs at my Myspace:: www.myspace.com/bryanisbell)
4.) I'm in a band
5.) i've decided to move (Possibly) to North Carolina
6.) I'm "touring" this summer, depending on if anyone wants me to come
7.) I started working back at hibbett
8.) I'm alsmost done with my internship
9.) i started teaching guitar lessons
and i can't think of the numerous other things that are swirling in my head.
It's been a busy time. because of that, my time with the Father has been limited. But something he has taught me and that i am clinging to is that he has me firmly in his hand, and all i can do is follow his leading. so we shall see where the road has for me and MY WIFE (that's still kinda weird!).
3.01.2006
for those who continue to check...
it's been almost 2 months since i've posted anything. let's just say things have been a little busy with the wedding stuff (which is happening in 10 DAYS!!!) and internship stuff and things of that nature. but, i found some time to humor those of you who may check this blog periodically.
i'm getting married in 10 days...oh my gah!!! i can't belive that it is actually here. words can't express the emotions or the feelings that that i;m going through right now. it's not a nervous feeling because it feels right and peaceful, and it's not a "holy crap"feeling like a "what am i getting myself into feeling". it's very surreal, and i don't know if has fully set in yet. it my not until i'm driving away from Marengo, with my WIFE sitting next to me in the car on the way to the hotel that we are staying at TOGETHER and it be okay. wow...that is so strange...
more to come...
bryan
i'm getting married in 10 days...oh my gah!!! i can't belive that it is actually here. words can't express the emotions or the feelings that that i;m going through right now. it's not a nervous feeling because it feels right and peaceful, and it's not a "holy crap"feeling like a "what am i getting myself into feeling". it's very surreal, and i don't know if has fully set in yet. it my not until i'm driving away from Marengo, with my WIFE sitting next to me in the car on the way to the hotel that we are staying at TOGETHER and it be okay. wow...that is so strange...
more to come...
bryan
1.17.2006
and finally...
to the request of many (ok, maybe only three) i am posting a new blog. so karen, farah and dylan, see, read, and be merry.
i realized recently how in the dark i really am. i had been believing several lies that the enemy threw at me, and i had been fitted with a nice pair of blinders. i could not see what was hitting me. however, by the grace and love and mercy and power of God, my blindness has been healed. i can now see the falseness of the stuff that i was being fed. in looking at the past year or so, i see the damage that this life i've lived has left. let the road to healing begin!
i hold fast to the promise that the LORD is the refuge for the weary and (to use a bible term) heavy laden.
"I look to the hills, where does my help come from? my help comes from the lord!"
-Somewhere in Psalms
peace
i realized recently how in the dark i really am. i had been believing several lies that the enemy threw at me, and i had been fitted with a nice pair of blinders. i could not see what was hitting me. however, by the grace and love and mercy and power of God, my blindness has been healed. i can now see the falseness of the stuff that i was being fed. in looking at the past year or so, i see the damage that this life i've lived has left. let the road to healing begin!
i hold fast to the promise that the LORD is the refuge for the weary and (to use a bible term) heavy laden.
"I look to the hills, where does my help come from? my help comes from the lord!"
-Somewhere in Psalms
peace
12.25.2005
Merry Christmas!!!
i hope that the Christmas season is going well for all of those who may be reading. what is freedom? what does it look like? where does it come from? these are questions i find myself asking...myself and pondering the answer to them. i struggle with the idea of freedom. i know that i am free, but, somehow i always end up in the shackels again. i have dificulty claiming that freedom for myself. i had come to a point that i believed that i had it nailed, only to realize that i was the one being nailed back to the prison wall. the idea of true freedom has eluded me...and yet it hasn't. this is making absolutely no sense to me, but i know that it will. to be free is to embrace the sacrifice that has been made on my behalf. to live in bondage is to mock this sacrifice and deem it unworthy of me. but it's all backwards. i am unworhty of the gift. the gift of grace is something i neither meritted nor deserve. yet it is freely given. to grasp on to this is to forsake all that is known to me and run in the direction of the Father's voice. thank you, Daddy, for this gift of grace that i am not worthy of.
peace out
peace out
12.19.2005
what's happenin'
It's been a while since i've blogged. it's kinda discouraging to me that no one ever leaves comments on my blog. does nobody read it, or do they simply refuse to comment? i had to beg Karen to leave me a comment so that i wasn't a comment loser anymore...oh well. if you're reading this, humor me a little adnd take a few seconds to leave me a comment...or don't, which ever works for you.
i'm getting married...that's so cool!!! we are moving Karen into OUR house tomorrow. i'm so pumped! let me just say that God is good in His provision for His children. i never have a need that is left dry. even in my unfaithfulness, He is faithful.
Karen and i are raising our support to go on staff with Grace. it has definately been a trying experience so far, not knowing how in the world we were going to raise all the money in the right amount of time. But, as mentioned above, God is faithful, moreso than i will ever be able to fathom. He has, in only a short amount of time, provided several people that are wanting to partner with us, with the hope of more to come. it is a really cool place to be, allowing God to provide ALL of your financial needs. i will be the first to tell you that i struggle with the idea of giving up control of my finances, especially when i'm about to get married with the pressures of the world telling me that i have to have all my ducks in a row and be "the breadwinning, successful man." it's cool and kinda scary to know that it's not in my hands. whoa...this is so much longer than i ever thought i would blog. the little scroll bar just came into the post box...well i leave you with this: who better to trust with your money than the One who has all the money in the world?
i'm getting married...that's so cool!!! we are moving Karen into OUR house tomorrow. i'm so pumped! let me just say that God is good in His provision for His children. i never have a need that is left dry. even in my unfaithfulness, He is faithful.
Karen and i are raising our support to go on staff with Grace. it has definately been a trying experience so far, not knowing how in the world we were going to raise all the money in the right amount of time. But, as mentioned above, God is faithful, moreso than i will ever be able to fathom. He has, in only a short amount of time, provided several people that are wanting to partner with us, with the hope of more to come. it is a really cool place to be, allowing God to provide ALL of your financial needs. i will be the first to tell you that i struggle with the idea of giving up control of my finances, especially when i'm about to get married with the pressures of the world telling me that i have to have all my ducks in a row and be "the breadwinning, successful man." it's cool and kinda scary to know that it's not in my hands. whoa...this is so much longer than i ever thought i would blog. the little scroll bar just came into the post box...well i leave you with this: who better to trust with your money than the One who has all the money in the world?
11.29.2005
the best thanksgiving ever! (well, sort of...)
so...i spent thanksgiving in the carribean. while most americans were eating turkey in the cold november air, i was in a bathing suit snorkeling on the coast of st. thomas, virgin islands. and i must say it was amazing. all those fish and underwater creatures were incredible. another thing i discovered in my under the sea adventure was the specimen known as the sea urchin. it is black and looks a lot like a koosh ball. i was greatly surprised to find out that it is not a koosh ball. instead, it is like a ball made of needles. needles that poke and sting you. i found that i am not a fan of sea urchins.
But, overall, i had a fantastic time and probably gained 10 pounds with all the food they gave us. whatever i wanted, whenever i wanted. it was stellar.
karen got to go with us on the cruise (along with her family). it is really awesome to experience the things we saw with the person you love. i was sooooooo glad she was there. she made the trip so much better. in case you were wondering (which i know you were) this is random simply because i am waiting for something to print at the library. i had nothing better to do, so i thought i would blog a little. so, that's been the insight into bryan's mind for the day.
peace
But, overall, i had a fantastic time and probably gained 10 pounds with all the food they gave us. whatever i wanted, whenever i wanted. it was stellar.
karen got to go with us on the cruise (along with her family). it is really awesome to experience the things we saw with the person you love. i was sooooooo glad she was there. she made the trip so much better. in case you were wondering (which i know you were) this is random simply because i am waiting for something to print at the library. i had nothing better to do, so i thought i would blog a little. so, that's been the insight into bryan's mind for the day.
peace
11.10.2005
wow...
i'm amazed at the goodness of God. it has just been so apparent to me over the last few days that He is sooooo good. i'm getting more and more excited about the wedding. karen played me the song that she will be walking into, and i started crying! i still tear up when i think about it. not only will it be my bride walking down the aisle towards me, it will be a shining example of the excitement and awe that we will experience as the bride of christ on our wedding with the eternal bridegroom. i know that i will be waiting eagerly and excitedly for my beautiful bride to arive. how much more eagerly does Christ await the arrival of his bride...US! what an amazing picture of the glory that waits for those who love Him!!! i'm getting chills...
peace
peace
10.16.2005
what had happen wuz...
The title was the first thing that came to my mind. Isn't it cool how you can look back on something and see God's hand in it, even though you couldn't see it before? I have had a few moments like that in the past couple of days and it's really really cool. It's mind boggling (that's a really fun phrase to say) to see how God works in His oh so mysterious ways. I think it is so funny to me that I'm about to get married to a girl that I would have never met without so many thing falling into a perfect place. And it's even funnier that i met her when I liked another girl. But the LORD knew best and i am marrying "the ONE" and not the other. I've just had a lot of cool "wow, God you're really really cool" moments recently. Most of them have involved the path that has brought me to where i am now. A year and a half ago, i had never even picked up a guitar, and God has opened up the door for me to do something that i'm passionate about (lead worship) without me even seeking it out. I had always said that God was going to have to open those doors and that i would just wait on his timing. It is just so cool to see His faithfulness and His provision. well, i think i'm about all talked out for 11:30, so i'll leave it at that.
peace
peace
9.26.2005
9.22.2005
making the transition
well...i finally did it. i quit at hibbett. it's about time, right. well, from here, i don't know where life will take me. i'm excited to see what God has for me. i don't really have much else to say. peace...
9.05.2005
An Explanation...
i've been asked why i chose the title that i did for my blog. well, here's your answer:
I feel as though i am preparing for something, but it is not related to my major. i know that i must finish school in order to get to where i'm going, but i don;t think where i'm going involves my major. this is really confusing to me, because i woild like (at times) to just drop out of school in order to pursue other things that i enjoy, like, say, moving to Seattle and helping out with the desperate need for light in the dark place. But, for noe, i'm stuck in the middle of school and the preparation for whatever it is that i;m being prepared for. so, there you have it. why i'm "here in the middle."
I feel as though i am preparing for something, but it is not related to my major. i know that i must finish school in order to get to where i'm going, but i don;t think where i'm going involves my major. this is really confusing to me, because i woild like (at times) to just drop out of school in order to pursue other things that i enjoy, like, say, moving to Seattle and helping out with the desperate need for light in the dark place. But, for noe, i'm stuck in the middle of school and the preparation for whatever it is that i;m being prepared for. so, there you have it. why i'm "here in the middle."
8.31.2005
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